I Am a Closeted Gay
I wrote this poem as a release for myself, but if it can help just one person on here, I'd be happy. This just came to me at 3am in the morning waking me out of my sleep. I hope everyone enjoys it. I've only let a select few read it, I'm pretty apprehensive when it comes to my poetry.
A Question of Love,
I can't change who I am,
no matter what I do.
I've been trying so hard,
until in the face I turn blue.
I'm happy being myself,
not caring what others think.
No longer will I put on a charade,
your Kool-Aid I'll no longer drink.
Please don't tell me what my heart should feel,
don't tell me whom I can think of.
It's not a question of straight or gay,
but just a question of love.
So please don't treat me any different,
I'm the same person I've always been.
I'm just sick and tired of being sad and lonely,
hiding behind a fake wide grin.
So if I find someone who makes me happy,
and he makes me feel so damn good.
Don't judge me if you don't like it,
because if it was you I never would.
I'd be happy you had someone in your life,
regardless of whom it may be.
As long as your content I'd handle it,
now be noble enough to do it for me.
I don't need no major announcement,
don't need no coming out party.
That's not who I am,
the attention isn't for me.
This is just me finding a special someone,
So go ahead and choose your side.
I hope you'll stand with me,
this secret I can no longer hide.
But if you think this is wrong,
then I will respect your opinion.
But when there's true love at stake,
how can it be considered a sin?
If you can't take me in his life,
then you are out of mine.
Because I need people to lean on,
not those that undermine.
I won't put any labels on myself,
especially when he fits me like a glove.
Because to me it's not about categorizing,
it's about a question of love.
A Question of Love,
I can't change who I am,
no matter what I do.
I've been trying so hard,
until in the face I turn blue.
I'm happy being myself,
not caring what others think.
No longer will I put on a charade,
your Kool-Aid I'll no longer drink.
Please don't tell me what my heart should feel,
don't tell me whom I can think of.
It's not a question of straight or gay,
but just a question of love.
So please don't treat me any different,
I'm the same person I've always been.
I'm just sick and tired of being sad and lonely,
hiding behind a fake wide grin.
So if I find someone who makes me happy,
and he makes me feel so damn good.
Don't judge me if you don't like it,
because if it was you I never would.
I'd be happy you had someone in your life,
regardless of whom it may be.
As long as your content I'd handle it,
now be noble enough to do it for me.
I don't need no major announcement,
don't need no coming out party.
That's not who I am,
the attention isn't for me.
This is just me finding a special someone,
So go ahead and choose your side.
I hope you'll stand with me,
this secret I can no longer hide.
But if you think this is wrong,
then I will respect your opinion.
But when there's true love at stake,
how can it be considered a sin?
If you can't take me in his life,
then you are out of mine.
Because I need people to lean on,
not those that undermine.
I won't put any labels on myself,
especially when he fits me like a glove.
Because to me it's not about categorizing,
it's about a question of love.