I Wasted My Time On Someone
Aug10,2019
I called him a few times, I’ve been blocked and unblocked. Not really sure what’s up with that but I left 3 vm. I think I’ll leave it at that. Idk. I don’t want anyone else. Even if he does. I’ve gave myself plenty opportunity to be with people but I just can’t. I love him too much . Until I can leave Alaska I don’t think that will change.
I’m still gonna keep living day by day and just hope this heartbreak will fade.
Aug11,2019
He stayed over . I missed him. I loved holding him. I know I won’t see him again... at least for a while. Maybe I shouldn’t. Idk. I love him. And it was so great to just lay with him, i put all that anger and sadness aside just to enjoy my time while I have it.
Aug12,2019
Today sucked. It still does.
Aug13, 2019
Today sucked also.
I’m not sure what to write.
When I’m with him my world stops.
I didn't write much the passed few days so here is a synopsis of added events;
Aug 10 I caved and we laid in bed and cuddled all night. This night was perfect.
Aug 11 he slept the entire time and I cuddled him. Some disheartening comments from him some emotional ones from me. I knew our time was ending.
Aug12 the attitude evolved. He’s drunk now. Calm "C.E.J" is gone. This moment is painful, suffocating. . I dropped him off. I’m angry. I remember why I hate him. That’s awful
I called him a few times, I’ve been blocked and unblocked. Not really sure what’s up with that but I left 3 vm. I think I’ll leave it at that. Idk. I don’t want anyone else. Even if he does. I’ve gave myself plenty opportunity to be with people but I just can’t. I love him too much . Until I can leave Alaska I don’t think that will change.
I’m still gonna keep living day by day and just hope this heartbreak will fade.
Aug11,2019
He stayed over . I missed him. I loved holding him. I know I won’t see him again... at least for a while. Maybe I shouldn’t. Idk. I love him. And it was so great to just lay with him, i put all that anger and sadness aside just to enjoy my time while I have it.
Aug12,2019
Today sucked. It still does.
Aug13, 2019
Today sucked also.
I’m not sure what to write.
When I’m with him my world stops.
I didn't write much the passed few days so here is a synopsis of added events;
Aug 10 I caved and we laid in bed and cuddled all night. This night was perfect.
Aug 11 he slept the entire time and I cuddled him. Some disheartening comments from him some emotional ones from me. I knew our time was ending.
Aug12 the attitude evolved. He’s drunk now. Calm "C.E.J" is gone. This moment is painful, suffocating. . I dropped him off. I’m angry. I remember why I hate him. That’s awful
