I Am Spiritual But Not Religious

When you step beyond body, to astral, senses become sharper, realism of existence around you is much more crisp than here.. But the sense of control is lost, cause the chattering mind doesnt exist, you act on the first thought you get, there are no retakes. It is almost confusing if its a step forward or backward. Funny enough in this grand creation, human life experience is so nicely faking out the availability of "being in control" "making choices", when in reality what we have to go through is already predestined. Cause if this existence is made in a timeless, changeless domain (god perhaps?) , all the past present future must have been created all at once!