I've Been In Love And Betrayed
My closest best friend (friends for years btw) did this to me, we clicked right away, and could talk for hours without getting bored. He disappeared on me for two months, then came back to confess he couldn't lose his feelings for me, he tried, but he couldn't.
I confessed similar feelings, and for 4months we talked non-stop.
He lived 16hrs away, with his work schedule we didn't have time to make plans to see each other, but that didn't matter much, the nights talking to him on the phone, while staring at the sky till he would fall asleep was enough.
Everything was fine, he would say the sweetest things, ask for silly pictures, and just call me out of nowhere.
He was non judgemental, I told him everything, and he encouraged me, trying to help me through all my problems, I adored him.
It was like this till one day right before April, he seemed different, he told me he needed these feelings to die down, I asked what he meant. He didn't message me for days.
I woke up to a text from 3am, he said he didn't want to tell me, that he didn't want to hurt me, but he was in love with someone else.
I asked how did that happen?
He used my past (past abusive relationship,broken family, etc) against me, he killed me inside, this was no longer the person I came to care about so deeply, he was a complete different person, he said he didn't want to be my friend anymore, it was probably the last time he would talk to me.
After going off on him, I felt horrible, I texted him, if he ever needed someone to make him laugh like I always could, or anything. To message me whenever, that I forgave him for saying his feelings changed that I understood, and if it made him happy, then I was happy for him.
He never messaged me back, but I truly meant it.
I had true, pure feelings for him and still do. Im not over it, and wont ever forget him, or the time we spent talking under the stars.
I confessed similar feelings, and for 4months we talked non-stop.
He lived 16hrs away, with his work schedule we didn't have time to make plans to see each other, but that didn't matter much, the nights talking to him on the phone, while staring at the sky till he would fall asleep was enough.
Everything was fine, he would say the sweetest things, ask for silly pictures, and just call me out of nowhere.
He was non judgemental, I told him everything, and he encouraged me, trying to help me through all my problems, I adored him.
It was like this till one day right before April, he seemed different, he told me he needed these feelings to die down, I asked what he meant. He didn't message me for days.
I woke up to a text from 3am, he said he didn't want to tell me, that he didn't want to hurt me, but he was in love with someone else.
I asked how did that happen?
He used my past (past abusive relationship,broken family, etc) against me, he killed me inside, this was no longer the person I came to care about so deeply, he was a complete different person, he said he didn't want to be my friend anymore, it was probably the last time he would talk to me.
After going off on him, I felt horrible, I texted him, if he ever needed someone to make him laugh like I always could, or anything. To message me whenever, that I forgave him for saying his feelings changed that I understood, and if it made him happy, then I was happy for him.
He never messaged me back, but I truly meant it.
I had true, pure feelings for him and still do. Im not over it, and wont ever forget him, or the time we spent talking under the stars.
31-35, F
