I Am Wondering What the Point In Living Is

I honestly can't find it. I don't know what I'm doing everything for. When I'm feeling depressed and I want to feel better, I tell myself just push on and just do my best. It works for a bit and then I go back to asking what's the point in all of it. I wish I could stop giving myself false hopes and just end this bullshit. But I'm still holding on to that freaking shitty hope that it will get better. It does get better and then life will trip me again. What's the point?