How would you feel if you had a daughter who did that? It would kill you. And it will kill every one of your family and friends, and they’ll have to live with that the rest of their lives. Surely you don’t want that. You don’t have to do this. There are alternatives. Counseling....even free...online through self-help videos. You don’t need a permanent solution for a temporary problem. So many others have it so much harder than you, yet they go on and even thrive. Death isn’t the end, anyway. Where would you spend eternity? That’s something you don’t want to get wrong. Think about that. There’s no second chances.
You seek professional help, like I am doing. Counselling, therapy... whatever you want to call it. My head is fucked up like that too. I have vague ideas as to why, but I'm not in control of my wildly shifting states of mind regardless of how much I might understand the path to my current mental health.
If you are thinking about suicide, even if you're not serious about going through with it, but are being so overwhelmed by emotions that you don't know how else to react; speak to a doctor. Trust me, you'll be doing your future self a favour. She will thank you later.
No one cares about me either. But some of us here do.
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I guess you mean into a river for a swim? I used to to do that until one day my best friend came with me and we jumped together but he drowned. So i'd avoid bridge jumping.
There are a lot of us who go down the rabbit hole like you. But we manage to come back out. And so will you. I know where you are and it sucks. Sorry is all I can say. Just bite down and get through. You are stronger than you realize.
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Please don't. I'm sorry that you are feeling this way and wanted you to know that it will get better. I care, please know that.