I Write As a Form of Therapy

I don't know if it's fear or weakness,

I'm afraid of taking that step, because I don't think I can survive what comes after.

Except I think that maybe I could... maybe.

I just don't want to.

I fear that abyss.

I fear feeling that way again.

I don't want to.

Weakness? Fear? I don't know.

I just don't want to feel that pain again.