I Put On Headphones And Block Out The World

It's at night, when all is quiet in the house, when everything around me is still and calm, that I plug in my headphones and try to settle in for the storm. Because my demons, the thoughts and fears of my day, week, month, or even the year, take control of my head and run through every negative outcome that could come of any event that I could remotely come into. And it's this time when I feel most vulnerable and weak. Because there is no one for me to go to. No one to talk to. No one to make me feel safe. Because everyone else is safe inside their dreams. I envy those around me for that. Being able to dream. All that I'm able to do is release the pent up tears from the events of the day in the privacy of the darkness.