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I Am Fascinated By Human Behavior

Girls are funny. The ones who are looking for a "nice guy," but go for the guy who approaches them like prince charming. Not that I find it funny the way boys just whimsically flirt with girls like it means nothing, or that I think it's acceptable to have your heartbroken because you really thought he cared. I hate the natural dynamic between males and females, after all, when the first guy approaches you, you feel like he chose you, like he made a decision to start something with you, but then you find out what's making his decisions for him.

I don't really find any part of it funny or amusing, but when a girl who's already experienced how fleeting a boy's affection is, goes out with another confident guy hoping he'll be different... I just shake me head. Why? Because nice guys don't often approach a girl like that. Nice guys observe before they speak up about their feelings; they make sure that they CAN like you before they tell you, and sometimes they never have the confidence to create an opportunity where they can tell you. They don't have the masculine confidence you seem to be so turned on by, because they haven't been playing the field and learning how to be a playa like the other guys you've been going out with. But you won't fall for one of those nervous, awkward guys. Why? Beats me. Probably beats you, too. We don't know why we like the things we do, we just do. And that's exactly why we should question that, because how can we make the best decision for ourselves if we don't even know why we're attracted to the things we are? Or if we don't know what the things we're attracted to will result in?

I'm writing this from the perspective of—at least what I like to think of—as a nice guy. I watched you all participate with your love games in high school, but I've never known another person's touch. A couple of online relationships have crept up on me unexpectedly, with girls who realize that maybe me not being a man's man could actually be an okay thing... 'cause I'm still talking them after 2 years, meanwhile they've cycled through 5 boyfriends, ...so maybe I'm worth a try. But there's no trying to me. Unfortunately I've lost 2 very good friends because it turned into more and we couldn't go back. But I learned how seriously I need to take heartbreak at all times. I'm aware now. I either know you're not going to work for me, I'm not sure so I want to learn more, or I straight up know you'll be worth any mountain we have to climb. When I choose you, I am also very consciously choosing ONLY you, and I can't have a doubt that I'll ever leave you, otherwise I won't tell you how I feel.

I'm not here to tell you that I'm a perfect lover, or that I know how to do it better than everyone else. All I'm saying, is that if a love like mine is the one you want to find, then don't go out with the guys who ask a different girl every weekend... or at the very least, don't expect them to be the "nice guy" you're looking for, when what you're looking for is commitment.

But on a sadder note, I used to wish for the girl who would approach me. I feel more like a girl than a guy for the most part, and having someone cross the room for me would have set my world on fire. So I do understand how appealing it sounds and how you can get swept off in the moment. But there was only one girl who ever did approach me like that, and it was nothing like I expected. I realized that the girl who would cross the room for me, was a very experienced girl indeed, and that I wasn't likely to be approached by a sweet introspect in a society that teaches girls to wait for the guy to approach. I'm really sorry to say, but for you sweet angels who just want to be loved, it won't happen like magic. He won't sweep you up in his arms all at once, and he'll probably be just as shy as you are. He'll probably be off in the corner, observing you, but it will seem like he's never looking because one look is all it takes to keep his heart chiming for 5 minutes before he's tempted to look again.

I'm writing this for both you and him. There's lots of nice guys who will love you more than you've ever felt, they just start out really shy and awkward. Not being approached doesn't mean people don't think you're beautiful, the most beautiful people have the loudest thoughts, but the quietest voices, and you have to take the time to understand their mind before you'll understand how beautiful they think you are.

Find someone who'll treat you how you deserve, and you deserve to feel irreplaceable. Now open your eyes and look at all the people you didn't notice XD Maybe one of them could hold your heart for forever.
Itslauryn
I didn't know that being shy and awkward determines if a guy is nice. Why does being shy/awkward mean someone is nice? I've been out with a few guys who've approached me, and they've all come across confident. (But they've also been complete dicks/self centred). I guess I thought they were just comfortable in their own skin and that was attractive. But it's actually just narcissistic. And I then assumed all guys were assholes only in a relationship for their own benefits. And I'm still trying to figure out if that's true or not. I'm struggling to hold on to the idea that there are actual nice guys, or if they're just sweet talking to get what they want. And I want to feel as though I'm not an option, but a choice. That's why it feels like a bigger compliment when a guy can get girls easily, but chooses you. I want to know what a nice guy is like if they exist, so that I can give myself to someone who deserves it. I had talked to this really nice guy for months (who was so shy/self conscious around me it's unreal), and one day he started an argument saying the most horrible things (even mentioned my abuse saying I must've liked it), for absolutely no reason. I think he did it to screenshot the argument and show off to his friends. But that literally ruined my perception of nice guys. It makes me feel as though nice guys are just faking. And it feels as though 'nice guys' are desperate and I don't know why it feels that way. But barely any guys in my college speak to me, only a couple really confident people. I feel as though the quiet guys mark me out of their league (not trying to be vein lol) and don't bother. But I'm shy so I never have the guts to talk to anyone let alone someone who feels uncomfortable around me. Ugh I don't want an asshole:/ sorry for the rant :)
Itslauryn
Yeah I hope so too 😊 aw thank you? Yes wish you luck too! You deserve someone who appreciates you
ReasonablyInsane · 26-30, M
I think we're going to be alright... I have to believe there's someone who can love me... and that makes me feel better, even if I never meet her.
Itslauryn
Yeah course, all we really need is food water and oxygen to survive aha, it's not the end of the world being alone. Yes that's exactly what I think lol
powerStorm
If you like a girl than approach her. that's why girls go for these douches because it's seen as needy if a girl makes the first move. I know how awesome "nice guys" are. i've dated one of these "nice guys" best bf i've ever had but it only happened because he was confident enough to approach me. so please do us a favor and be confident and maybe try to initiate some conversations so we still have hope that "nice guys" actually do exist
ReasonablyInsane · 26-30, M
But what if you never have the confidence? It's quite possible I just never came across a girl that mustered it inside of me, but I think it's also true that for very sensitive guys like me, it's not so easy to put myself out there as it is for my male peers.
AfricanGirl19
Boys are funny as well. Didnt think of that huh
ReasonablyInsane · 26-30, M
Very true, I don't doubt that for a second :) Nobodies "normal," but some of us are further from the "average" than others.
AfricanGirl19
Don'r focus on them then
AfricanGirl19
*Dont

 
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