I Don't Understand People
Though I try to go through life with a positive mindset I often fail and let myself get pulled down by people that appear superior to me even though they aren't. Not even as a person in general, but about certain things they do, say or are able to that make me lose my mind, tell me how worthless, clueless, dumb, ugly or whatever negative thing I am.
It makes me feel like I can't say anything without being criticized or straight up misunderstood, can't do anything without being frowned at, wondered about or without making others creeped out.
While I'm writing this I realize I could never open up like this in real life. That's because I've been made fun of for things I like or think basically all my life. I can barely talk about myself because I'm afraid I might be judged for what I'd say, or sometimes I'm so scared of the future that I tend to not even try things and instead give up on myself right away.
It's shocking to see and realize how people can influence you within just a few years, maybe even just months to change your personality almost entirely...
Just needed to vent a little.
It makes me feel like I can't say anything without being criticized or straight up misunderstood, can't do anything without being frowned at, wondered about or without making others creeped out.
While I'm writing this I realize I could never open up like this in real life. That's because I've been made fun of for things I like or think basically all my life. I can barely talk about myself because I'm afraid I might be judged for what I'd say, or sometimes I'm so scared of the future that I tend to not even try things and instead give up on myself right away.
It's shocking to see and realize how people can influence you within just a few years, maybe even just months to change your personality almost entirely...
Just needed to vent a little.
