I Want to Live Life to the Fullest

Anxiety and fear always hold me back. I end up second guessing myself, and near enough always back out. Occasionally, I have a break through and I win... most times however, I cower away and loathe myself for not being stronger and more confident. At the end of the day, I have only myself to blame for my regrets. I want/ed to live a life of no regrets; and yet here I am regretting my very own existence. I wish I was brave. I wish I had courage. I wish I could believe in myself. I wish I could live life to the fullest.

Maybe there's time; but I've wasted so much of it already. I don't know where to even begin. I don't know if I can even try anymore.