I Am Sad
Well, thats the understatement of the century. And whats worse, I have nobody to blame but me. I cant keep my trap shut, not can I hold something to myself. I drive away people, always.
I was in a relationship, for 4 years. I was loyal, stupid and caring. I never doubted too much, forgave everything, all lies. Never realizing one small thing, if he is doing it now, he will do it again. I came to know I am being cheated on after an year. Though I would see him online and he never talked, I thought maybe he is just doing something. Stupid. Then came the break-up, I moved on easy, half of it cz of me friends here on EP, half cz of the fact, I knew I was better off.
What I never realized was the impact that would have later, the insecurities it would breed. The instability it would create, in me. Now, I am possessive beyond measure, doubting everything. Cling on to things not mine and actually try to pretend I have any sort of right to say anything. Or ask, why somebody is not talking to me. Stupid girl that I am, I never realize, that just cz somebody is the world to me, doesnt stop their world from moving.
Time to pick up the pieces and get moving again. Just that this time, its gonna be hell and back, cz after all this time, I am truly alone!
I was in a relationship, for 4 years. I was loyal, stupid and caring. I never doubted too much, forgave everything, all lies. Never realizing one small thing, if he is doing it now, he will do it again. I came to know I am being cheated on after an year. Though I would see him online and he never talked, I thought maybe he is just doing something. Stupid. Then came the break-up, I moved on easy, half of it cz of me friends here on EP, half cz of the fact, I knew I was better off.
What I never realized was the impact that would have later, the insecurities it would breed. The instability it would create, in me. Now, I am possessive beyond measure, doubting everything. Cling on to things not mine and actually try to pretend I have any sort of right to say anything. Or ask, why somebody is not talking to me. Stupid girl that I am, I never realize, that just cz somebody is the world to me, doesnt stop their world from moving.
Time to pick up the pieces and get moving again. Just that this time, its gonna be hell and back, cz after all this time, I am truly alone!
