I Loved You Then, I Love You Now And I Will Love You Always

You were right in saying that love opens you up to as much hurt as it does joy. You were right to say that it scares you, and you were right to say that the fear of loss is there, as it always is.

My commitment to you is this, though I have not said it: you will not be alone. You only ever told me that you desire to find a place that you can call home - and perhaps that is impossible, either for the need to take to the wind to feel the freedom it can offer, or because of the lack of satisfaction that comes from trying to exist in the image that others would create.

But I will remember how I felt sitting across from you, when I would not want to be anywhere else. I will remember you most fondly for determination to always drive yourself forward, as I have said many times. But I also see you at the moments when you decide to show your kind side, in the moments where you speak with such passion about what has fascinated you in this life. You spoke about past hardships, and how you had made the choice to never be held down by them. To stand and do so by your own will. I am still as amazed by you as when I first met you. And through all of this, I could not bear to be the one who should eventually become your cage.

And I will love you, even if it causes me pain. I will love you when you will eventually forget me. I will love you as you find your way that will forever lead you away from me. My only hope is that it would lead you towards something greater. And all of this is something I am willing to take, because sheer stubbornness was one gift my family gave to me.

I can do this at least, because I will still try to understand you - and in all that I see in you, I am still left in awe. You more than anyone I know deserves to have found happiness; not just because of the amazing person that you are, but also because you have worked so hard for it on your own initiative. If this is what I can do, then I shall.
Because I will love you - always.