I Want to Find a Job That I Love
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do and I realize that I don't really know what it is that I want to do.
I thought about the Army, going back to school, trying to get a teaching job in Japan.
So many other things but I'm just not sure. As of lately, I've been switching between a lot of part-time jobs and now I can see how people end up doing that. I'm looking for what I want to do but I keep feeling that with each job something is missing.
There is a lot of stuff I like to do but maybe it is a mix of anxiety and fear holding me back.
I have really been trying to work on getting out of that everybody-hates-me mindset because now I realize just how much it has been holding me back. 99% or the reason I am scared to go back to school is because that is when my anxiety and depression become the worst.
But its seems the best possible mindset to have with anything is to think that everyone will want me. And if they don't take me its gonna be their loss.
I'm not sure what type of risks I want to take though. And I'm worried about money.
Today will be the first day of my next new job and I hope it works well. But I am also going into this job knowing that there are other things I want to do. But I am not entirely sure how to get to the point where I can do them.
I'm so confused
I thought about the Army, going back to school, trying to get a teaching job in Japan.
So many other things but I'm just not sure. As of lately, I've been switching between a lot of part-time jobs and now I can see how people end up doing that. I'm looking for what I want to do but I keep feeling that with each job something is missing.
There is a lot of stuff I like to do but maybe it is a mix of anxiety and fear holding me back.
I have really been trying to work on getting out of that everybody-hates-me mindset because now I realize just how much it has been holding me back. 99% or the reason I am scared to go back to school is because that is when my anxiety and depression become the worst.
But its seems the best possible mindset to have with anything is to think that everyone will want me. And if they don't take me its gonna be their loss.
I'm not sure what type of risks I want to take though. And I'm worried about money.
Today will be the first day of my next new job and I hope it works well. But I am also going into this job knowing that there are other things I want to do. But I am not entirely sure how to get to the point where I can do them.
I'm so confused
