I Wish I Knew Then What I Know Now
Note: This is an old entry from more than a year ago in Feb 2016. It was posted on Experience Project and I think it is worthy enough to share again as a reminder.
That night after I left my husband with a hand carry travel bag, a backpack and a mini sling pouch, it was like starting life anew but very unwillingly. Willingly or not, it challenged my values and the material things I possessed. I realised I didn't need much. All I needed was the stuff that I brought with me which included my son's belongings. It has been 3 weeks and I've stuck to the minimal clothing and accessories. I didn't even need more than that. I feel an even lighter weight off my shoulder. Most importantly, a lighter weight in my heart. A sort of detachment. A majority of my son's toys are still left in my marital home. But he didn't need them either. We played with whatever was in my parent's place and in nature. It challenged my parenting skills. Kids can be overwhelmed by toys too. Not having them pushes his imagination beyond boundaries. I am slowly finding peace within me.
That night after I left my husband with a hand carry travel bag, a backpack and a mini sling pouch, it was like starting life anew but very unwillingly. Willingly or not, it challenged my values and the material things I possessed. I realised I didn't need much. All I needed was the stuff that I brought with me which included my son's belongings. It has been 3 weeks and I've stuck to the minimal clothing and accessories. I didn't even need more than that. I feel an even lighter weight off my shoulder. Most importantly, a lighter weight in my heart. A sort of detachment. A majority of my son's toys are still left in my marital home. But he didn't need them either. We played with whatever was in my parent's place and in nature. It challenged my parenting skills. Kids can be overwhelmed by toys too. Not having them pushes his imagination beyond boundaries. I am slowly finding peace within me.
31-35, F
