I Often Feel Like Depression Has Me Not That I Have Depression

My thoughts are lost in a maze
It has me left in a daze.
It has me in a rut
With a twisted feeling in my gut.
In the maze I am stuck
I hate feeling like a sitting duck
My body is a wrestling ring
While my sanity is hanging by a string
It is so dark; no light in sight
I am so tired of trying to win a losing fight.
It's tearing me a part
When did this even start?
Gaping holes open wide
As I'm drowning from the inside.
Gasping for air
My lungs no longer care.
My eyes are dry
I have no tears left to cry
I've tried everything
But regardless it seems like nothing
This is no use
I'm running out of an excuse
These demons have no plan
If they do I have yet to understand.
My mind is full of twists and turns
It seems that I have yet to learn.

~Laurengripp94