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I Often Feel Like Depression Has Me Not That I Have Depression

JoJoe · 46-50, F
Never let go. How you feel today isn’t necessarily your forever. Remember that! Good days follow the bad! I know this as I almost left this world two months ago. The reality of it is totally different to the thought of it as an escapism. It’s totally different and there’s no going back! I will never do something like that again.

Please try to talk to someone if you feel that way. People may not realise just how low you’re feeling. Plus the pain it would cause your loved ones is next level. No matter how much it doesn’t feel like it right now, I’m sure you are loved by many and if they only knew just how much you may be hurting they would be there for you.

NEVER EVER GIVE UP NO MATTER WHAT PLEASE! We all have a purpose in this life & when you find your way, things can change dramatically in your favour.

Someone here put it in a way I’ve never looked at it before. You’re just in a different realm but feeling exactly the same. Before I just thought, I’d be in a different realm feeling normal & happy. I never considered that I could pass on but still be in the same place. That would be absolutely pointless & cause loved ones & yourself unnecessary pain. Then you can’t escape that. You’d be stuck in that which, in my opinion, is worse than being in this world & having options and hope.

Things can change. Our minds are just too strong and stubborn sometimes to make us see clearly. When we feel so low we are not in a rational mind state. There were so many things in the past I thought I would never get over. Fast forward a couple of years and I couldn’t give a shit about them. But if someone had told me I’d feel this way about said situations a few years ago, I would have bet my life that they were wrong and taking shit.

Now I see they were right as I have held on. If I can do it, anyone can, believe me. I’ve had these feelings that I need, have to and want to leave this world for over 30 years I think. If someone had given me this advice I would have dismissed them & wanted to knock them out for not understanding as most people don’t.

I’m still fucked up & have many demons to fight but I have hope & refuse and will never ever give up by ending my life. No matter how fucked I am, and I am fucked, believe me, I still have hope as we never know what’s round the corner. Please believe me and believe in yourself. Fuck what anyone else thinks or believes. You’re your own god.

I think this is the longest ever post I’ve typed on here. 😂🤣 It’s just something I’m extremely passionate about due to my experience. You being different & feeling the way you do probably means you’re amazing & unique. And it’s everyone else’s loss & problem if they can not appreciate who you are. You are more than likely the sane one and society are the insane ones. Never let them make you feel you’re not good enough. That probably means that you better than good enough and it’s those that are not. Don’t let insecure fake fucks try to bring you down to make themselves feel validated! Go to war with your demons. Stand your ground sweetie pie. I’ve gained strength from others negativity. I throw it right back at them than doing the best so can FOR MYSELF! Remember who you are!!! Xxxx

I hope this has helped. Xxx

 
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