I Accept My Weirdness

I don't what exactly defines being weird. I guess when you're not being yourself and when you're out of the average and not an ORDINARY person or unlike the others your age. Anyways I'll let you (the reader) tell me more about it. So I guess (maybe it actually is) being a teenager can be hard at times. I'm a quite a quiet person. But not all the time though. When I start talking EVERYONE (well, maybe not everyone, but still I'm trying to find someone who actually likes it) makes me stop or starts agreeing with me in a way that I'm making no sense. So I guess I have been weird my whole life. So I'm always trying to stay quiet. More than correcting those who speak, I stay quite and listen to them and correct them in my head. I know I'll be annoying if I ALWAYS do that. So for my quiet observant behavior I've been nicknamed a lot of stuffs. Let's not mention them here. These days have been quite hard though because I became more quiet thinking about theories and formulas, thinking about the universe, thinking about lots of other stuffs. And I began to hate eating. So my mum asked, "What's up? What has been wrong with you? Why have you been acting so WEIRD? Do you have crush on someone like the girls your age?" I didn't know what to say actually. Then I stayed quiet (thats what I always do! lol) for a minute and smiled at her "You are my mum, Idk what to say when you tell me that." Although mum wasn't the first one to do so. I received it from my classmates as well. When I talk too much I feel as if I'm showing off. But if you stay quiet, does it mean always you're in LOVE? (of course I'm in love with thinking, I love to do it more than anything else) I think about all these and I feel like an idiot. I felt shattered though when mum said that. Maybe that was due to my sudden hatred of food.

(Thanks for taking time and reading a thesis on my weirdness, although I can go on for ages.Hope I didn't bore you as MUCH as I wanted to)

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Taynkbot

Weirdness? Weirdness is just a word like any other, defined by the majority. If there were just one "normal" person on Earth, they would not be normal. But actually, they would, because they'd write the definition. See how that works? Being weird is just your distance from the average. And who wants to be normal? Look where it leads them... the same place as everyone else.

As for the rest of what you wrote, listen hear... I know what it's like being trapped in your head while everyone else seems to be out there.... together.... supporting each other. And you need to know right now that what your mind tells you about yourself isn't true... and I know how loud it shouts, but you can calm it with a whisper, just don't give in.
Never regret your mind. Yes, it isolates us, but having a mind that is different makes us special... we have the potential that a lot of others will never be able to fuel.

And finally, you should know you're not alone in being pushed back into the corner when you try to speak. I was about your age when I stopped sharing my opinions and ideas. Even when I knew I was right, I'd go along with the wrong idea first just so I could say "Told ya so!" in my head. Everyone made me feel like my questions were silly, so I stopped asking them. Everyone made me feel bad about anything I decided to share with them, so I kept everything to myself. Every time I did anything with anybody, I felt like everyone else would be happier if I wasn't there. I know what it's like to not be close to your family because you've kept everything inside so they couldn't hurt you, but you wake up one day and realize they don't even know you.

Never stop asking questions. Never cut yourself off. I'm here for now of course, but even if we don't talk forever, you can always, always contact me.... even when you're 60 and it feels too weird, haha, I'll always be happy to get a message from you.

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Thank you, teacher. I read your response twice. I think they cant just keep up with me!(I mean my craziness) And its getting bad, my sudden hatred of food except for now it doesn't feel sudden. It has become permanent.
Now that I decided to become quiet, I can't speak even when I want to. So that's not a good idea too, I guess. I don't know my life span, but I'd never stop being a learner! :)

earthsmoon13

baka! I'm never like annoyed with you! if I was then I would never ask u to sit beside me and talk or listen to me and u wouldn't have been my buff. If u become quite then I will not talk to u. If u r quite then who would respond to me an correct a crazy one like me, huh? If u are weird then what am I? Alien, I guess! And yeah I never said that u r in love or something! Screw you! :P

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earthsmoon13

I'm also in love with thinking don't worry:-)

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Sorry 'classmates'. That's what I mentioned.

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Although I'll not let you have the pleasure of being an Alien. I'm the Alien!

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Sorry due to some inconveniences a response posted earlier got deleted. I felt like writing about it.
"What does being weird mean anyway"
"There's noway to describe that. What you may consider weird can be normal to me. And the same goes for everyone. That's what I think :)"

"Okay"

MysterySci · 22-25, F

"But I'm not a fan of perverts" I mentioned it in my respond. Thanks anyway.

Fastolff

Throughout your life the one constant companion you can always rely on to be there when you need it most is your own thoughts. Treat them with the respect they deserve even if others are too shallow or self absorbed to do the same.

MysterySci · 22-25, F

Appreciate your thoughts,thank you :)

SethTheKid

Weirdness is a subjective term. It means nothing and everything at once. It hurts my brain to think about it sometimes.

MysterySci · 22-25, F

*know

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