ramble bramble ┬┴┬┴┤•ᴥ•ʔ/ [I Religion]
Back when I was 12 I used to always pray, read the bible at school, do religious studies and whatnot but for some reason, something crossed my mind at one point that made me question if it was real or not and ever since then it kind of stuck with me so I just sort of stopped believing entirely and dropped it.. I mean, I still pretended to believe in it all for my family and such for a couple years.... Then I asked my mom about it a few times but she'd always throw the "Oooo god works in mysterious ways, ya just gotta have faith kiddo! Better to believe in case it's true!" or something along those lines. Even so, as an atheist there are a few times where I think "Well....... It's not [i]impossible[/i] that there maaaaaaaaay be a god out there....?" then I get wasted and forget about it the next morning. But even so, I just couldn't bring myself back to believing in it.. I wasn't insulted for my beliefs or anything I just randomly woke up and thought "Hmm... Maybe none of it is real?"
And yeah this is just a ramble sort of.. Having many rude cold sweat awakenings that are due to existential crisis and my worth in this world being next to nothing and some day the glorious gates of heaven or hell won't open for me AND I'LL JUST FADE INTO DARKNESS AND NOT HAVE ANY CONSCIOUSNESS AT ALL, it kind of made me feel a little mopey. ┬┴┬┴┤•ᴥ•ʔ
And yeah this is just a ramble sort of.. Having many rude cold sweat awakenings that are due to existential crisis and my worth in this world being next to nothing and some day the glorious gates of heaven or hell won't open for me AND I'LL JUST FADE INTO DARKNESS AND NOT HAVE ANY CONSCIOUSNESS AT ALL, it kind of made me feel a little mopey. ┬┴┬┴┤•ᴥ•ʔ