I Am Struggling To Keep Myself Together
Hello everybody! :)
How are you all doing?
This is my first ever story here.
I am here because I have too much to vent out. My life sucks so much right now it's making me insane.
I'm a single mom of 1. I was married to the biggest prick in the whole wide world and trying to get a divorce from him has just drained me out.
I also quit smoking cold turkey like 3 months ago and I don't know how to handle stress without a fag!
2 years past my separation with my ex husband and I had chances to date some men but I pushed eveeybody away because I didn't think I was ready for a relationship yet and I was legally still married. I also had my guards up the whole time and then I find somebody for who I let my guards down and I regret it for some reason. I feel vulnerable.
I cut everybody off my life and I don't even know why! Guess I just wanted to be alone to find myself. So now it's just me and my little guy! Everything is good.
But I still struggle to be happy. Sometimes I crave adult company and then I also get scared to let anybody in my life.
I don't even know what I am doing.
I wish things were not so complicated.
I wish my actions didn't have consequences.
One day at a time is how I am doing it but it's so hard sometimes to even get through a day.
The only thing that's keeping me sane is my little boy! I am trying to keep it all together for him :'(
How are you all doing?
This is my first ever story here.
I am here because I have too much to vent out. My life sucks so much right now it's making me insane.
I'm a single mom of 1. I was married to the biggest prick in the whole wide world and trying to get a divorce from him has just drained me out.
I also quit smoking cold turkey like 3 months ago and I don't know how to handle stress without a fag!
2 years past my separation with my ex husband and I had chances to date some men but I pushed eveeybody away because I didn't think I was ready for a relationship yet and I was legally still married. I also had my guards up the whole time and then I find somebody for who I let my guards down and I regret it for some reason. I feel vulnerable.
I cut everybody off my life and I don't even know why! Guess I just wanted to be alone to find myself. So now it's just me and my little guy! Everything is good.
But I still struggle to be happy. Sometimes I crave adult company and then I also get scared to let anybody in my life.
I don't even know what I am doing.
I wish things were not so complicated.
I wish my actions didn't have consequences.
One day at a time is how I am doing it but it's so hard sometimes to even get through a day.
The only thing that's keeping me sane is my little boy! I am trying to keep it all together for him :'(
