I Hate Myself Sometimes

I missed them. They called and I f*cking missed them. We don't talk as often and I've been waiting for close to a month to talk. They didn't sound okay. God f*cking d*mmit. All because I have to f*cking obsessed and tear at my skin for almost 2 hrs. I hate doing this every f*cking to my d*mn skin. I missed them. And I miss them. Shows what a sh*tty person and friend I am. F*cking hate myself...