I Am Lonely

I don't know similar worlds is good or bad to sharing your feelings.I m sharing my feelings because no one is here ( in my life)to hear my feelings.I am fed up from my life.I want to end this life.But don't know why I hv a hope that someday everything will be fine.But till now it doesn't happen.I am hurt by others again and again but who cares ....
No body.....no body will care for me....I know,it happens with me ...n yes in future it will happen.Don't know what is God's plan for me.....no one cares for me.Even my parents are not take care of me.Even they don't know m having food or not.we are living in a family but my family is not living as a family.They are living their own world.Till now I am unmarried it is not my fault but they blame me.Till now I am unmarried because of my elder sister.She got married very recently.In India society it is not good to marry before your elder sister so I decided to remain for her.My father always angry on me.During school days he taught us not to talk with
Boys.thats y I studied in girls school,then college again he admitted me women's college.Only during my masters I studied co add collage. he wanted me to get married with a man who is not good enough.Once we went to thr place he wanted to touch me ,His touch was really very bad.So I rejected him.Father always blamed me that I m only the reason to break peace of our family.But it is not true we r living in joint family so it s the reason to break the peace of family.