I Am Lonely

Are we all just born to be lonely, some more than others? Born to flounder about listlessly, jumping from one person to the next trying to find someone who is actually able to give a shit? I lost my life-long best friend today...part over-reaction, part culmination...part just being fed up. I shouldn't care about someone who can't even reciprocate it. So now what? Basically alone, at 20, what would you do? What have you done? Keep trying and failing at making friends or just try and break that psychological need for people?

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girlingrey

I'm right there with you. It's pretty and idealistic to convince ourselves we don't need anyone else, but eventually that craving for interaction will break us, like withdrawl from a drug. Taking time for yourself is important, time to grow, time to heal, but you can't live your entire life alone. For me, right now honestly, I seem to be in that constant floating between people waiting for someone to really, truly, care, to break down the walls that I've built up. It hasn't happened. I'm not sure its ever going to happen. Right now, the only person trying to keep me going is me, and most days, not even that.

I'm sorry for your loss.

ChocolateCloud

According to Maslows Hierarchy, you can't break that need for people, or feeling of belonging, if you want to get to a point of self actualization. Maybe you and your friend might end up being friends again. Maybe not. You seem pretty smart and aware. I'm sure you know the answer to your question. (:

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