I Battle Depression

In my youth, I was a funny Kid but always stood out from everyone. But that diddnt stop me, and I had many Friends. But today I am a different Person. I cant laugh anymore, everyone hates me, I have only two real Friends, and to everybody else I am just weird. No one likes me and always goes away if I am around. I cant find new friends because when I do another one will come and try to break it. I still remember being sick one day and not coming to school. At that point my social life was pretty dark but still acceptable. The next day I went to school, someone told a lie about me to my friends, and they suddenly diddnt liked me anymore and tried to be as far away from me as possible. I still dont now why but I was able to recover some friends but they diddnt wanted to tell me anything. From that day on, without my friends around me I was no longer able to feel fun or laugh at something. Also my grades were falling, I hat much more conflicts with my parents, and to this point I have nearly no social live anymore. I cant even be excited that I have birthday soon or about christmas. And now you can tell me (if you want to): how many chances does somebody named Kevin with authism and no sense of humor have in his social life.😥