I Battle Depression
It has been a bad day. I woke up hurting and ended up cutting myself this morning. I still struggled to get through the day. I’ve been in this numb haze yet feeling on the verge of tears all day, but was unable to cry at all. Now I am completely numb, empty, dead inside. I am experiencing depersonalization. I hate it. I would rather feel pain than nothing at all. It’s like I just don’t exist in this world. I am on the outside looking in. I am just not a part of it. I have been struggling with feeling the need to cut myself again tonight just to make myself feel again. Sleep won’t even come tonight, despite taking some medicine so I can’t even get a temporary escape that way. I just want to make it all end, put myself out of my own misery.