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I Battle Depression

I fight the fight that many do, I don't do it any better or worse, just my own way. Each of us that do face it, usually have to face it alone, some get help one way or another and we do it our way. There are times we win a bit and others we don't. But most of us continue to fight it for whatever reason drives us on. I think my drive is just shear stubbornness.

But this last couple of weeks, I got into a program through the VA that allows me to obtain counselling through my computer. Telemental Health. Via webcam, I can now go to a weekly session with my Dr. without leaving my home. Hell, my room.

Now most on here don't know my situation, but due to an initial head injury and more since then (something about seizures and floors just don't work well for ones head), I have a few issues I deal with, one being light sensitivity or weirdly known as photophobia (NOT a phobia btw). It makes things difficult in going outside or for traveling to and from places. So, this is a blessing.

Of course this doesn't do away with all appt's I have to go to, but this is one less physical and emotional stress I don't have to deal with when I have so many others already. Still have neurology, physical therapy, all the tests I can't get out of because of meds I take, all that fun stuff.

But just had to share a positive note when dealing with such a negative subject. As always, anyone taking the time reading my ramblings are appreciated. Hope it wasn't a waste. Take care.
Your story is both inspirational and sorrowful. I thank you deeply for having the courage to share your living situation. I will keep you in my thoughts and will gladly offer my unbiased ear to just listen. This is should you ever need someone to talk to about the woes of life. Please PM me anytime. (⌒‿⌒)
MrPerditus1 · 61-69, M
@Kaguya Thank you kindly. I appreciate the offer and will take you up on it, if ever the need arises. Though I usually come on here more to vent than sit in the feelings, but knowing there are those willing to listen helps.
SW-User
And yet you choose a profile pic that reinforces it. Maybe something happier.
SW-User
@MrPerditus1 You seem too comfortable with the idea of ongoing depression. You choose to represent yourself so and engage others so.
MrPerditus1 · 61-69, M
@SW-User It's not so much comfort as the realization that since my injury, my life has been taken apart. I understand where it comes from, but it doesn't stop it from coming when it wants. I fight it and work on getting better. Do I want it to continue? Hell no, that's why I am fighting it. But to say I'm comfortable with it from a rant or vent. Again, I can see how someone not around me all the time and only getting a glimpse at the few things I share might think that.

Everything that was before is gone. Do I wallow in it? No, but I do vent when the pressure of it gets to be too much. I come here to release sometimes when I need to, but I have other things that since the change, I've embraced and am learning to go with, adjusting to a life that isn't at all what it was.

So, this is my place to just get the crud out. yeah, I can see how anyone would think and point out what you have. Again, always nice to get input.
@Peeka - For the record, I would prefer a empty void over an individual masquerading as one who is both "cheerful" and supposedly a central "pillar of society". All I see is a very "narcissistic" person who is looking to satiate their "sadist impulses" through others. You would do well to remember that karma may cast you a similar living circumstance later on. :/
I listened to two beautiful songs by OMAM today that deal with depression and anxiety

[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AILsB9G8qEw]

[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-6II3p7fxo8]
MrPerditus1 · 61-69, M
@Underconstruction Thank you for these. I haven't heard them in a while and it yeah, they are wonderful.
@MrPerditus1 Yes, they are very moving. Glad you liked them.

 
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