I Miss You More Than You Will Ever Know
Tonight my heart hurts missing the loved ones forever gone, lost to drug addiction and mental illness, chicken or the egg, wishing I could have done something, anything to save you from yourself..
I know there wasn’t, but I still feel that way..
RS, I still once a year wish I’d called you that day I almost did, but decided not to then got the phone call at midnight you were gone. Mom was forever changed too.. Her light died with you..
AJ, I still see you in our daughter’s eyes wishing I could’ve been your safe place while you rebuilt your life after fate had dealt you such a shit hand before we met. Now I get to read av]bout you as a statistic in my classes.. and the world spins on..
RB, I still wish I could have somehow pulled your parents out of denial to stop trying to pray it the f%$&^ away and get you real help. At any time in that 4 year span they could’ve stopped enabling you. So much hell happening now could have been prevented.. Now you’re a shell, a ghost.
I know there wasn’t, but I still feel that way..
RS, I still once a year wish I’d called you that day I almost did, but decided not to then got the phone call at midnight you were gone. Mom was forever changed too.. Her light died with you..
AJ, I still see you in our daughter’s eyes wishing I could’ve been your safe place while you rebuilt your life after fate had dealt you such a shit hand before we met. Now I get to read av]bout you as a statistic in my classes.. and the world spins on..
RB, I still wish I could have somehow pulled your parents out of denial to stop trying to pray it the f%$&^ away and get you real help. At any time in that 4 year span they could’ve stopped enabling you. So much hell happening now could have been prevented.. Now you’re a shell, a ghost.