I Need You I Miss You

Its been a while now, its really been hard to not miss you but I just can't help it, ever Wednesday I come home your the first thing that pops into my head cuz I wanna ask you how did it go I'm chemo, what did the doctor say,or what did you and the nurses talk about but I remember your not there and you won't be there anymore. There person who took me in when I was 12 and got kicked out of house you took me in you made sure I had everything. I have no regrets because we understood each other without even having to say anything. You knew the day would come when you would leave us but even though we also knew we weren't prepared for how much it would hurt, we weren't ready for you to be away from us. You fought and fought you showed us all to never stop pushing n walk forward. Its gonna be my body soon and if I could really wish for anything completely anything n it would come true I would ask to see you again for you to spend at least one more day with us at least but I would really want you here with us for all my lifetime. I still walk past your room not sure what to expect but know your there and sometimes it does feel like you are but I look n ik your not there. Te extraño mucho quiseria que tu pudieras estar por todos mi cumple años, quisera que mi futura esposa te haiga conosido quisera que mis hijos te hubieran conosido. Pero yo se que te van a conoser porque les contare de ti y todo lo que hacias. Pero te doy gracias porque aun que me comporte muchas veces como mocoso siempre me decias que me querias. Thank you with all my heart ik I will miss you and remember you a lot more as time goes on. I can't wait to see you again one day n tell you stories about my own family. We miss you mom