I like opening up this book to any page - and discovering what message I may get.
Today, it’s “On Reason and Passion”.
“Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against your passion and your appetite. Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion, that it may sing; ...you too should rest in reason and move in passion.”
My take: I’m trying to do too much because I think if I don’t then I’m no longer useful. I think about what I could be doing and getting done - my passion and desire to accomplish things (ahhh see what I did? I did something therefore I exist) - as opposed to just resting because my body is working so hard, on its own, without me having to think or feel it, to fight the cancer trying to take over.
I even consciously focus on my breath and infuse those breaths with healing thoughts as it goes in, and breathing out the sickness. And this is a task unto itself. It tires me out. I wish I could see how just resting is monumental.
It is monumental because it makes today and tomorrow possible. You have to support your body as an integral part of all you are - you’re not a tenant there. It is the home of your Self.
@Annii I have not (as yet) been on your side, but I was with my husband during his battle. I learned more about endurance and determination and grace and courage from him in fourteen months than in all the rest of my life combined. It’s a severe testing ground.
Endurance: yes Determination: yes Grace: ehhhh well... Courage: sure Let’s just say I’ve had my moments of frustration where I indulged in an outburst or something passive aggressive and immediately regretted it. I’m working on my grace. 🙏🏼@Mamapolo2016
