I Am Always Lost

Idk why I let fear and getting overwhelmed control my life so much lol ever since I could remember, Idk why I do that why,whyyyyy..what purpose am I here. To make ppl laugh, or cry, expose truths? Or tell ugly lies..


Yet hiding my own dark inner thoughts or jokes that is too tabboo for this platform. Idk why troll is such a bad thing, troll can also have a positive light to it,to not make this place feel so serious, to just be free and joke about dark matters so its easier to cope,Or is it just me being serious myself and trapped in my own head.

even hiding love in fear of looking like a hypocite but like I know Im alr that lol like everyone else.

Idk why I let rules control me..sometimes I feel all I have turned to is a ball of insecurity and hate..I dont wanna turn into a ball of hate, but I idk, will this help or worsen everything? Will sorries trap me or free me?


A lot of times I feel words and people people persecute is not justified to the "crime".. so many others get away with can be trivial but also such sick things, to leave and have that thought at the back of my head haunts me.

Its always safe to just think "no one needs or wants me" "I'll just do more harm than good" "someone else will say it"

Its just excuses telling me that I cant be worth to anything, but Im entitled to my own opinions, my own ways of thinking, and if u are offeneded Im sorry, I just wanna make ppl laugh, and seek truth, and if u feel like I have helped, I am glad.

Confidence..just gota be confident
Am I too honest and transparent? Lol

(Not seeking sympathy just #sayin)