I Want To Be Special To Someone

I once had what I thought was love. I wonder if I could ever get that back, have it be true love and last forever. I recently have developed these longing desires to be with someone who loves me unconditionally and stop lingering in my past of the what ifs. Everything happens for a reason, and I need let my past go and look towards the future. Only thing is, I don't know what the future holds. I pray that it includes a man that I can be myself 100% . I pray that it holds a man who loves me unconditionally, respect me, and put me first before anything but God, especially if marriage if the goal, which it should be. I want us to be able to communicate with each other. I want us to be able to confide in each other, love each other's flaws and grow old together.