I Want To Be Special To Someone

Get into a relationship with a guy who knows what healthy love is
And then feel like I love too much and it's all wrong
Then it starts feeling like I'm just putting him on a pedAstal all the time
And he does not treat me the same way back
I'm expected to say nice things to myself and treat myself like I want to be treated
But I still get ignored
Of course I'm going to feel insecure all the time
Of course I'm unhappy
I think I'm too intense. He just couldn't handle me.
Bloody depressing