30th Birthday [I Feel Lonely]

It's my 30th Birthday in two days and I'll be spending it with my parents. It's sad that I don't feel close enough to anyone else to spend it with. I don't even want my brother or extended family to come and nearly all the friends I have, I only made last year.

I have one friend I haven't seen in several years. I can't invite her because it would just feel awkward.

I don't want a bunch of bodies around me anymore. I want a bunch of people I feel deeply connected to, and I don't have that.

*sigh*