I Want to Be a Better Person

So, I've been told that the best place to start is the beginning; where does one really begin, though. I joined here, because I am in need of friends, of a place where I can vent, just write my thoughts, however they may be.
I know I'm the only one who has suffered loss, and each loss is painful. I have come to terms that I'm different, that I'm just as unique as the person who took the time to read this. That though we're in different stations in life, we still have needs, and desires. I just need to figure out which ones are needs, versus a desire I can live without.