I Really Hate Myself Sometimes

Not all the time, but sometimes there are moments where I look back and wonder what was wrong with me. I don't kill off characters in any of my stories or pseudo-screenplays, not even main characters. The one time I did though it wasn't actually killing that character's best friend, it was basically just brainwashing and making them evil. In the context of the story my character was cursed to turn into a character who was evil and/or a monster (a specific monster to be exact) and he couldn't control himself.

I pretty much broke down in tears after I wrote that story, like I thought that I really killed them.