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I Think I Am A Waste Of Space

There are people i've had to stop talking to because i've felt like a victim around them. They have their lives together so well that i have nothing to offer them and all i can do is NEED this or that. That's why i've gone away, let me get myself together to their level of self responsibility and competence, Let me just work on me without always feeling beneath THEM. Let me stop being such a waste of space that my husband would push me out of the way so that STRANGERS would not be inconvenienced. i don't even know where i can walk or stand or sit so that i'm not in anyone's way.
olderuncle944 · 70-79, M
and just why could you ever feel that you a loving smart attractive woman . there are very few people in this world that have your abilities
so stop this foolishness now and I have your blood sugar hasent dropped again
shimmeringrose · 46-50, F
@olderuncle944 Thank you, Sir. Though I fear that my abilities may be very mundane and that anyone can do better with even a small amount of effort and so that thought makes me work harder.
olderuncle944 · 70-79, M
look at you college studies your a 4.0 student teach others and do internship plus even sat your tutoring remember one day you didn't make it to school and 2 others didn't go because you were not there your abilities far exceed most student and some teachers so mundane is no where close or reflect on your abilities
shimmeringrose · 46-50, F
@olderuncle944 Thank you, Sir. You are so kind. However, I still need to try harder, because every time I start to relax is when I begin to fail.
There is a freedom, and turning away from and saying no to those who have not been good for us.
That is very important, to eradicate from your mind, the idea that you are here for the use and needs of other people. Perhaps it is time for you to be here for the uses and needs of yourself!
Everybody may look different, but believe me all humans are exactly the same at the end of the day. You do have your value just like everybody else.
ronisme1 · 61-69, M
i am still your friend and you are not a waste of space
ronisme1 · 61-69, M
You are not terrible. I'm trying to tell you that I care and want you to eat to get better. You mentioned your mom. If you could have had her live for another year, wouldn't you have bugged her to stop Smoking? I know you would say yes. I care enough about you to want you around for a long, long time. I'm sorry that I hurt you but I want you to be around for a long time. I want you to care enough to want to be around a long time. I want you to eat. I wont keep pressing on you. You know i care.
shimmeringrose · 46-50, F
@ronisme1 i wouldn't have begged her to stop smoking because by that time i was an adult and i know it would have been too hard for her. When i was a child i asked her to stop several times and she didn't. i knew of the damage it was doing and tried to tell her. she was beginning to cough even with a cigarette in her mouth. There was nothing that would have stopped her from smoking and she wasn't trying.

i am researching and working on changing my habits. My life has recently changed and makes eating almost impossible, but i try to eat when i have enough spare minutes.

And so go ahead and say.. everything is an excuse and ignore all of my efforts and the energy i spend on improving. Anyway, that's what i think everyone does.
ronisme1 · 61-69, M
You are trying, that's all I wanted to hear. That makes me happy
olderuncle944 · 70-79, M
you know better than to have that idea ,you very valuable to many people especially me
ronisme1 · 61-69, M
you have never been a waste of space rose. you are a major delight to anybody who knows you
Noway345 · M
That is no way to think!

 
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