I Realized I Have No Friends

My mother had cancer. I imagine what if I told her that I'd stop talking to her if she didn't stop smoking.. but wait.. I would never say that. Smoking is unhealthy, but I stand with my friends and family, so I would never threaten to abandon them. I have a sleeping disorder and also an eating disorder, but i don't complain. Sometimes i have to explain the problem if i become dizzy and walk into a wall or a pole. i know that my real friends would never abandon me, so why don't i have any friends?