I Believe In God
When I was in my early 20's God filled my heart and mind. I had a thirst to study His word and I had a great passion for the Lord. I'd wake up with childlike wonder just as a kid would on Christmas day, full of joy and excitement. This is how I was for God. It was around this time that I knew it was time to be baptized. I studied His word and as the day approached closer a battle grew feverishly in my mind. Confused feelings of doubt, was God really real? Good versus evil split my mind in two. How could I doubt now? I hadn't all these years I thought to myself. Nobody knew I was going through this spiritual battle and I was very embarrassed to talk about it. I kept praying that God would show me the truth.
When in doubt, I often reminisced back on an experience I had when I was ten years old. I thought my family and I were going to die. I was crying one night alone, and I prayed in the darkness. A huge warm loving hand laid upon my right shoulder and at first it startled me, but then I smiled. I knew it was a messenger from God telling me it was going to be okay and not to worry. I drifted in such a peaceful sleep that night and I woke up next day witnessing to my mother and all that would hear my story.
But if didn't have this experience would I still have faith in God today? Many people struggle with this issue. After all, we can't see God, but isn't that where a leap of faith comes in? Many things are real even though we can't see them. I have witnessed many miracles in my life and I certainly have felt God in my heart and I have felt him speak to me. I also witness God in nature and how intelligent our bodies/minds are created and I see the beauty in everything He made. And I do believe He made these things. In order to give birth to something, one must need to create it first. A computer, for example, doesn't just build itself and appear out of thin air. It takes planning/design and a builder's hands to create.
Even without these experiences, I feel I would still be a believer. For all of those that doubt and I know many people are struggling right now, I do pray that someday God will speak to your heart and show you the right path that He has planned for you. I hope you feel His love. We all go through times of doubt, we are human and some choose not to believe at all. God gives us free will and the right to choose no matter what. He is our father and wants our love and attention. He is sad when He is rejected but he still gives us free will.
2 Corinthians 5:7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
When in doubt, I often reminisced back on an experience I had when I was ten years old. I thought my family and I were going to die. I was crying one night alone, and I prayed in the darkness. A huge warm loving hand laid upon my right shoulder and at first it startled me, but then I smiled. I knew it was a messenger from God telling me it was going to be okay and not to worry. I drifted in such a peaceful sleep that night and I woke up next day witnessing to my mother and all that would hear my story.
But if didn't have this experience would I still have faith in God today? Many people struggle with this issue. After all, we can't see God, but isn't that where a leap of faith comes in? Many things are real even though we can't see them. I have witnessed many miracles in my life and I certainly have felt God in my heart and I have felt him speak to me. I also witness God in nature and how intelligent our bodies/minds are created and I see the beauty in everything He made. And I do believe He made these things. In order to give birth to something, one must need to create it first. A computer, for example, doesn't just build itself and appear out of thin air. It takes planning/design and a builder's hands to create.
Even without these experiences, I feel I would still be a believer. For all of those that doubt and I know many people are struggling right now, I do pray that someday God will speak to your heart and show you the right path that He has planned for you. I hope you feel His love. We all go through times of doubt, we are human and some choose not to believe at all. God gives us free will and the right to choose no matter what. He is our father and wants our love and attention. He is sad when He is rejected but he still gives us free will.
2 Corinthians 5:7 For we live by faith, not by sight.
