I Love My Accent

@DarkHeaven What's yours like?

@Carver I was raised on a farm in Midwest US, so until I went to school, I only heard my dad, my mom, my brothers, and our ranch hands speak. My Dad was born and lived until a teenager in Iceland. My mom was born and lived until a teenager in northern Ireland, so my accent is a mix of Icelandic, Northern Irish (which is way different than the Southern Irish most people think of when the think of Irish,) and rural country Midwestern. I sound weird. Nobody but my older brother talks like me. Even my younger brother somehow escaped it. Ugh.

@DarkHeaven Are you kidding? That sounds lovely! ☺️

@Carver It sounds more Icelandic than anything. I’m definitely my Dad’s little girl. Led to my “lesbian Ice Queen,“ nickname in high school. The popular boys couldn’t get in my pants because I don’t like most boys and didn’t date in High School. No one said it to my face because my Brothers would have lit somebody straight up but I did hear it around.

@DarkHeaven I see! 😮 That's a cool story though. 😄

@Carver The girl I hit on a bit drunk as a Sophomore probably didn’t help. She was not bi or gay like assumed and told everybody. Rarely did I drink more than one after that, the rest of my life. lol

@Carver Now I don’t drink at all because of all my different meds.

@DarkHeaven Lucky girl! If only... 😏

@Carver *giggles* Part of the Ice queen thing I think had to do with the fact that they thought that I thought I was better than them. My Mom had gotten me an Agent an into commercial modeling about that time. I didn’t feel better than anybody, though. I was Bi and mostly into the girl side in a traditional rural Midwestern community. I was very shy, really scared (of my sexuality,) and had terribly low self esteem.

@Carver They didn’t know me at all.

@DarkHeaven Oh, wow.... 🤩 Sounds like a great story I'd love to hear about someday if you don't mind. ☺️

@Carver They all lived in town mostly but I lived in the country on a farm. I had lots of work and chores and very little free time after school and homework. My Dad is strict and traditional and didn’t allow me to date. And I just wanted a girlfriend. lol

@Carver They were hanging out smoking cigarettes and drinking on the strip and I was outside on the farm putting up fence.

@Carver I would have rathered have been them, honestly.

@DarkHeaven But that just made you tough and hard-working. 🤗

@Carver Even them being mean probably ended up working out for the best. By my senior year... I sort of had my own thing going on and lots of confidence from having to fight through all that dumb crap being picked on, plus my modeling (was just catalogs but still a big ego boost,) and also my playing in my band (that started late my Junior year... we would just jam at my friends because we didn’t have paid gigs or anything to play at yet.)

@Carver I was a pretty tough girl and I wasn’t beholden to anybody’s opinion because I didn’t give a fuck what any of them though about me.

@Carver Became Ice Queen bitch.. and proud of it, because I ain’t nobody’s fucking doormat. 😉

@Carver Nobody said it to my face, though. lol

@DarkHeaven Damn! You were a regular bad-ass then. A sexy one at that. 🥰

@Carver Naw. Just stupid.. and a fighter.

@DarkHeaven Not stupid, but definitely a fighter. 🤗

@Carver Too much, sometimes. I almost got expelled my Senior year and wouldn’t have got to graduate. My mom was so pissed.

@DarkHeaven At least now you're a fighter in terms of resilience.

@Carver I’m not as tough as used to think I was. The hospital broke me in ways that I can’t even describe.