I Would Like to See What My Future Holds

I wish I could see what my future holds.. Right now I have to take anxiety medication because I'm so nervous at the thought. My dad died lonely when I was young and so it unfortunately heavily rubbed off on me and so I'm quite desperate to find my soulmate or someone that I'd comfortably spend my life with. Towards the end you could see how sad he was and lonely and that scares me about my life. I'm 22, sure, but its still a scary thought thinking you might be alone forever, just my own father.