How God does little things.

I think I'm having an anxiety attack. My heart is pounding. I'm having trouble breathing. I should go for a walk. Outside the air is thick and heavy. This isn't helping. I'll just walk around the block. I remember that apartment building. I was friends with everybody in it. 4 of them died. Two of them are in nursing homes. The other two moved away. This isn't working. Keep walking. How do I get my heart to slow down? How do I get my breathing under contr......oh look a toad! I wonder where he's going. I wonder if he'll let me pick him up. Yep. I wonder if I can pet him. Yep. (5 minutes later) I'm getting bored. I'll put him down. Ok get down. You can go now. C'mon get going my back is starting to hurt like this. Ok bye bye. ?????????? Why am I out here? Why am I walking? I'll just go back home.