I Don't Fear Death

I don't fear death only judgement life has no meaning life to me of death and death is life I was dead once and almost died 4 more times after so it won't matter if I'm gone I'm not close to family anyway just my mom and bother and they both gone I feel more alone than ever without my on and bother I have had many dreams I am with my mom and wake up barely breathing each time why can't I just be with my on and Jesus I'm sop tired of being here