I Used to Self Harm

What Have I Done?

Locking myself in my room.. I lay on my bed
My head is pounding.. And it's hard to breathe

Thoughts are racing through my head begin to fight with myself

Wondering.. Should I? Or shouldnt I?
My mind is telling me "do it"..
I can't.. I'll let down so many people

I give in.. I pick up my blade
I make a cut or two into my skin
It hurts.. Its been awhile

Before I knew it.. My heart rate slowed down
I could breathe again

Ashamed of myself I put the razor down.. I silently start to cry..

I whisper to myself.. What have I done?


I QUIT CUTTING IN '05 BUT RELAPSED IN' 07. THAT'S WHEN I WROTE THIS. I HAVEN'T CUT SINCE ALTHOUGH THE URGE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. WRITING AND COMING ON HERE TO SHARE AND TALK TO OTHERS HELPS.