I Smile Even Though I Am Sad

In general I am a happy person, there are a few things that can make me sad. Love is one of those things, don't get me wrong I like being in love and have someone that cares about me and cuddles with me. But love makes me emotional and insecure most of the time which I do not like, the whole process of making myself vunerable in a situation that is a risk and I end up being hurt again.
I will doubt myself afterwards, is it me, my looks or am I boring.

I am good at hiding so I will smile and pretend that I am okay but still its not a nice feeling that I rather stay alone my while life then going through that whole process of feeling insecure again.

Sorry if this makes me look like a sad person but honestly I am not.