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I Don't Date because...

I'm fat, boring, jobless, plain looking, have poor social skills, don't know how to respond to conversations, have a hard time connecting, and horrible at keeping friends, and staying in touch. Other than that, I suffer from depression, and anxiety, and tend to overthink a lot plus I'm asexual. All I do these days is get stuck on the internet, and playing video games, very unmotivated to do anything, and binge eat my feelings away. I've been living in a hole I can't seem to get out of no matter how hard I try...life is too cruel to me in the past that's why I'm stuck the way I am. There are days that I just stay in bed, and want everything to end.

My family is right, I guess I really am undateable. At least I'll save people from someone like me...I'm destined to be alone.
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you know my big fear with asexuals isn't so much I wouldn't ever date an ace because romance mattters to me a lot it's more last time I tried she got under my skin and drove a wedge between us by getting pissed off I gave her too many hugs and I was just like ok file this under doesn't want to be touched at all in any context I'm the fuck up out of here because I can't get my needs met at all.

even if I could go without the sex the lack of a cuddle bunny at the very least is basically fatal.
bittersweethermit · 36-40, F
@BetweenKittensandRiots That's sad...she shouldn't have overreacted, and just said a simple no. Sorry it didn't work out :( As an asexual though, I prefer cuddling to making out...I guess it's different for everyone.
@bittersweethermit https://voca.ro/1jMVQivDdJpw honestly I was like omg I'm dating a chick who reminds me of my dad... flee..../

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@bittersweethermit https://voca.ro/1mC0CES8xw7S
bittersweethermit · 36-40, F
@BetweenKittensandRiots I hope you have help with your PTSD...mental health is very important. Sorry if I made you share, and brought back bad memories for you. I didn't mean to :(
@bittersweethermit Ehhh It's over. Lyssa chan is best damn thing I mean honest the way that everything all righted itself in the end was quite beautiful really.

Kendall which was her name was like litterally one of maybe 2 I was actually the one to leave though. It's -very- rare.

It was just a sudden realization we were at each others throats and there were differences that were just -not- going to be overcome.


and plus I was already -under- my fathers abusive roof so it was like This fighting is familiar already I'm not really looking to replicate getting screamed at all the time. it's familiar- I don't need to relive it to fix it, I gave up on that a long time ago.

Ill put up with a lot but being a girls punching bag? I'm not really here to help with that.

She had plenty of people who were willing anyways. some relationships turn out like broken glass it's better to just leave it than cut yourself trying to put it back together.

I don't like being the one to give up usually... I'm stubborn as fuck.... once mind is made it takes an awful lot to get me to give up on someone which is kind of -part- of my problem. I'm not usually eager or willing to do it.

which means if it happens at all 9/10 times the girl is the one to leave me.