I Am Trying Hard Not To Be An Angry And Bitter Person

I am angry - angry at my father, my family and at myself. My life did not turn out the way I wanted. For all the wonderful little speeches I have given over the years, I could never take the same words to heart. It has made me cynical and bitter, and it has only deepened the anger that I feel.

I want to free myself of this anger, but to do so I have to fins my own way forward. It's time I let go of all the hatred I feel and try to come to terms with years I have wasted nurturing it.

I know deep down that it won't be easy to do - and that a part of me doesn't want to let go of a feeling I have nurtured for this long. And to do so, I would have to re-open old wounds; return myself to a weak and pathetic child. Only then, can I finally be free of this ruin