I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me
Down The Road..... I knew he loved me, but I knew he was no longer "in love" with me. I suspect it was partly distance/ignorance/stubbornness.. We were so much alike. Eventually we started to live different lifestyles, moved farther away..but he always found me. I really loved that about him, at a time where neither of us carried cell phones or used 'Myspace' (when it was popular) he had this strange way of knowing how to find me.
Eventually some years passed with no words, no contact, nothing. But I found him (I knew I would) and I really wanted to know if he was okay and happy. Hearing his voice, I just knew that If I saw him one more time it would be..romantically mordacious. Instead I voiced my delight for him being so well and some other things happened during that conversation...
Anyway to make a long story short..I knew that would be last time I ever spoke to him. There was this odd silence to this certainty..and we both knew it. Who knows, maybe down the road I will wish that I had said more during that conversation but part of me doesn't see anything changing from that. I loved him for being the friend that he was to me ( at the time when it truly counted he was there) and at least I'm able to move on knowing that he knows that..
Eventually some years passed with no words, no contact, nothing. But I found him (I knew I would) and I really wanted to know if he was okay and happy. Hearing his voice, I just knew that If I saw him one more time it would be..romantically mordacious. Instead I voiced my delight for him being so well and some other things happened during that conversation...
Anyway to make a long story short..I knew that would be last time I ever spoke to him. There was this odd silence to this certainty..and we both knew it. Who knows, maybe down the road I will wish that I had said more during that conversation but part of me doesn't see anything changing from that. I loved him for being the friend that he was to me ( at the time when it truly counted he was there) and at least I'm able to move on knowing that he knows that..
