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I Was Thinking

About my dad. Father's Day is Sunday? I wonder if I get holiday pay...
I might call my dad or go visit. I'm the only one who does. I still hate him. Everyone in my family does. But I see that all he is nowadays is a rotting old man waiting to die, but desperate to force people who don't care about him to care FOR him. He really is pathetic. He found ways to make sure we all suffered. Our whole lives, he got us all individually.

He wasn't always like that. There was a time when I was a kid that I saw him as my dad. He would cut paper dolls out of construction paper for me and my older sister. He would drive me to school on his way to work because I didn't want to ride with my sister and her friends. We'd stop at 7 eleven and get snacks for the day. He encouraged me to draw and paint, always getting me supplies. He'd probably still get me some if I asked...I won't. I don't do either anymore.
There are things I remember about him that aren't awful. I'd like to think in those this weekend. Maybe it's easier if I don't call.
Please call him or visit him.
It is the only way to bring peace to yourself and release any negative thoughts you still have of him. After all, he did give you life. I empathize with you because I was abused by my mother. Emotionally, mentally, and physically destroyed. That's how I felt. Long story short: When my father transitioned from this life, one of the things he left me was his BEECHCRAFT (airplane). Supposedly my mother was stilled owed money from their divorce so she sued his estate. The entire estate was left to my sister and I. I did not want to fight her in court. Signed a waiver and gave her ALL of my part of the estate. A year passed and I decided to call her to say hi and that there were no hard feelings. I couldn't/wouldn't do it. I tried! 5 mths later my aunt who had been a pilot for over 25 years took my mother, her sister up in the BEECHCRAFT for an afternoon flight. Clear sunny weather. Both were killed that day when the aircraft went down. Through all the abuse I went through from her....I wish I could of told her I loved her.
Don't suffer this. It hurts really really bad.
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Marsane1, the difference is that I don't love him. No one in my family has any love left for him. I have some pity for a senile old man and that's it. As far as I'm concerned, I lost my dad a long time ago. The shell is left. I am sorry for your losses though.
He did something good!
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Icanandwill, I think everyone must sometimes.

 
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