I Was Thinking
About my dad. Father's Day is Sunday? I wonder if I get holiday pay...
I might call my dad or go visit. I'm the only one who does. I still hate him. Everyone in my family does. But I see that all he is nowadays is a rotting old man waiting to die, but desperate to force people who don't care about him to care FOR him. He really is pathetic. He found ways to make sure we all suffered. Our whole lives, he got us all individually.
He wasn't always like that. There was a time when I was a kid that I saw him as my dad. He would cut paper dolls out of construction paper for me and my older sister. He would drive me to school on his way to work because I didn't want to ride with my sister and her friends. We'd stop at 7 eleven and get snacks for the day. He encouraged me to draw and paint, always getting me supplies. He'd probably still get me some if I asked...I won't. I don't do either anymore.
There are things I remember about him that aren't awful. I'd like to think in those this weekend. Maybe it's easier if I don't call.
I might call my dad or go visit. I'm the only one who does. I still hate him. Everyone in my family does. But I see that all he is nowadays is a rotting old man waiting to die, but desperate to force people who don't care about him to care FOR him. He really is pathetic. He found ways to make sure we all suffered. Our whole lives, he got us all individually.
He wasn't always like that. There was a time when I was a kid that I saw him as my dad. He would cut paper dolls out of construction paper for me and my older sister. He would drive me to school on his way to work because I didn't want to ride with my sister and her friends. We'd stop at 7 eleven and get snacks for the day. He encouraged me to draw and paint, always getting me supplies. He'd probably still get me some if I asked...I won't. I don't do either anymore.
There are things I remember about him that aren't awful. I'd like to think in those this weekend. Maybe it's easier if I don't call.