I Don't Celebrate My Birthday With A Birthday Party Anymore

I'm always in a bad mood for my birthday. I was thinking about that today. My birthday is September fourth but I don't celebrate it at all. I haven't gotten a present sense I was 21. Honestly, it makes me feel bad about myself for even feeling bad about stupid presents. My mom came by and gave me money to get some new makeup but like always I had to spend the money on necessities. This year it's school supplies for the kids. Siggghhh. All I want is something that's just for me and it's making me feel guilty.