I Am Alone

I'm alone but I know someday I'll be okay.

I sit here and I look around and I'm alone.
I look over to your chair and I see you but I know you're gone.
It wasn't perfect but somehow we made it work.

I think back at all the times you smiled but I never new the bravery you had.
You knew your time was coming but somehow you smiled.
Everyone said how great I was, but you were the one that was great.

I brought you to your treatments and told you how I hold onto any possibilities you'd get better.
But like you said, we were living in denial.

Thankfully for the great doctors and nurses and all the staff in Boston we were able to do different things with thew time you had left.

You were so strong. No one including me knew what intense pain you were going through. Some how you would walk with me and say it's going to get better, it's going to get better. But you knew, looking back you knew.

Like I said I sit here and I miss you and think what we could have done. At the same time I wonder what what the future holds on to me.

It's been 4 months today. Am I being selfish looking forward to my next partner?

This time is so weird !!!!!